This video was shown during service last Sunday. I found myself almost crying by the end of it because it struck a cord. Of course I was affected by the fact that I don’t see myself in a positive light. But what really struck me were how the strangers perceived each other. It made me wonder how I was being perceive by my peers, by my customers or better yet, my own loved ones. Do my negative thoughts, my negative perceptions of myself affect the people I come in contact with? Does my constant self-deprecation eventually cause other people to see me in that same light?

Furthermore, the message that Sunday was that to really start living a Christian life, one must change their thoughts. There should be this renewal of your mind. Because your mind is always going and can constantly be diverted, you have to find a way to keep your mind open. Simply put, “set your mind to flow with the spirit.” Now, I’ve never been a very positive person so this is very hard for me to do. But it’s a battle that I’m ready to take on because I do not want my thoughts to affect one’s opinion of me. The undoing of the years of low self-confidence just might take years! But again, if I am to draw closer in my relationship with God, in my relationship with other people, I have to change my thoughts and perception of me.

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. Romans 12:2

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:5